The Lord Is My Portion. I Will Wait For Him…

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Wait For the Lord (My Portion)

The last song off my record, “My Praise” – the second of two projects I put together and am selling to raise funds for marriage counseling, for some couple or couples I may never meet.  🙂  You can read about it here:

Wedding Coat Campaign

Know the Truth Ministries

This is a celebratory, praise song, fitting for an end of a record.  And also fitting for my announcing THE MONEY HAS BEEN RAISED!  God is so good!  $1000 raised, plus my match of $1000, makes 20 marriage counseling sessions.  I trust God will use these (or has), for His glory and the good of others.

The Lord is my portion.  I will wait for Him…

I’ll write more about this topic, in future posts.  I would love to see a revolution in our society, where marriage is not looked at as a “contract”, but a covenant.  Where we would teach our children this, in word and action.  Where we stand by our spouse, even through the worst of times (they will happen). Where we humble ourselves, admit our failures, give and accept forgiveness, from each other.  Where Christ is put first in our hearts, so that we can put our spouse first (doesn’t make sense?  Two firsts?  But bottom line, if we don’t put Christ first, we will put ourselves first, and our spouse a very distant second at best.  And we all lose).

THANK YOU to all who have helped along the way.  You are a blessing.  And please, keep those you know in marriages, good or bad, or even embarking on marriage, in your prayers.

The Lord is my portion.  I will wait for Him…

 

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I Will Remain Confident of This…

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Land of the Living

Another song off my record, “My Praise” – the second of two projects I put together and am selling to raise funds for marriage counseling, for some couple or couples I may never meet.  🙂  You can read about it here:

Wedding Coat Campaign

Know the Truth Ministries

I wrote this song around the verses in Psalm 27, that have been resonating in my heart and mind now for almost a year:

I remain confident of this:
    I will see the goodness of the Lord
    in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord;
    be strong and take heart
    and wait for the Lord
(Psalm 27:13-14)

Every time something upsetting, or tumultuous, would happen in the news, or in our lives – this passage came to mind.  It’s a passage of hope.  Sadly, it’s not a hope everyone has….

We see this today, all over us.  Donald Trump is getting headlines for something he said.  Some are violently for him, others violently against him.  Most of the time, the vitriol for or against, causes me to wonder, are we putting our hopes or fears too much in one man?

A young man was killed in Minneapolis back in November, by a police man.  This sadly is not an uncommon occurrence.  It’s caused an uproar among many who have a distrust for our authorities, and the system we have in place for law enforcement.  This young man was black, which leads to suspicions that race was a driver and contributes to more distrust in the systems we have in place.

I bring this story up from November, because just last week the decision was made that the police officers were not found guilty of murder – that given the evidence they acted as they had to.  Agree or disagree – the thing that comes to my mind is that those who knew and loved this young man have had his death replayed, over and over, in the news and social media.  I wonder how I’d feel, if he were my son…

Add to this – the young man was black.  Another black person killed by police.  I won’t weigh in on this, because to be honest I don’t know much.  I saw the evidence, in this case.  I made up my mind.  But to be honest – I don’t know.  I don’t know what it’s like to be a black person in America today.  I also don’t know what it’s like to be a police officer in America today.  I simply don’t know what happened that night, or other days or nights, when officers were responding to whatever it was.  But the bottom line is this – we have an issue with our fellow man today in America. We MUST deal with it.  I must deal with it…

Abortion videos have been the rage now for months.  The affects have been – interesting.  Many have seen these videos, and had to re-think their stance on what they see as “women’s rights”.  Others have dug their heels in, making heroes out of those who promote this choice.  Both sides are building their armies, and especially in an election year.  Please – let’s not forget, lives are affected here.  Sure, it’s a legal, and even political, discussion.  But really, it’s about LIFE here.  The life if the child.  The life of the mother.  The life of the FATHER, and all the family.  Everyone is affected…

Divorce is celebrated more and more.  Marriage is becoming something people don’t even see a reason for.  Why get married, when we can just shack up?  I know this is nothing new.  But think about this – when we as people learned about how smoking affects us and those around us – we started to re-think how “cool” smoking was.  People just don’t associate smoking with “cool” anymore.  Divorce, which has just as much of a disastrous affect on us and those around us, is still considered “cool”, or “OK”.  “Do what makes you feel good, that can’t be wrong”. ..

Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done.  They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; (Romans 1:28-30)

This is us!  We are not going here.  We have BEEN here, and for generations.  We have decided we don’t need God.  And God has allowed us to – go our own ways.  That’s the “wrath of God being revealed” in our time – the turning over to our wickedness, more and more.  People are scared, worried, filled with rage, discontent, entitled, self-preserving, self-absorbed, judgmental, condemning – the complete opposite of how Jesus lived while here on earth.

I remain confident of this:
    I will see the goodness of the Lord
    in the land of the living.

So I wait.  And I do whatever it is I can, that the Lord would have me do, according to HIS will, not mine.  While that does mean helping those who are left out, forgotten, “the least of these” – the ultimate goal is not to make THIS world better.  Sorry to say, it ain’t going to get better.  There will be no “utopia on earth”.  Not until Jesus comes back.  Sure, we can and must help those in need – but anything we do according to the world’s view of “good”, is temporary at best.  The “land of the living” mentioned in Psalm 27 is not here and now.  It’s the new heaven and new earth that Jesus Christ will usher in upon His return!

I remain confident of this:
    I will see the goodness of the Lord
    in the land of the living.

Yet God has not forsaken us.  He is still SEEKING us.  And He’s still seeking YOU.  I beg you – please don’t shut Him out…

Land Of the Living
God is man’s creator
Still we craft our gods
God is man’s redeemer
Still we choose the dark
But I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living

God reigns over all things
Lord, don’t let us deny
God is dwelling in us
Don’t let us choose to die
I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living
The Lord is my salvation
There’s nothing left to fear in the land of the living

I lift my eyes to the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord

God, You see the murder…
God, You see the hate…
God, you feel our heartache…
God, you feel our pain…
I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living
The Lord is our salvation
There’s nothing left to fear in the land of the living
I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living
Be strong, take heart, wait for the Lord…

As I mentioned in the other posts, I am selling this record to raise money for marriage counseling.  Please prayerfully consider giving to this cause, to save maybe just ONE marriage.  You can buy my music here:

My Praise

Wedding Coat EP

Or, if you like, you can donate directly to the ministry here:

https://northlandcounseling.us/Donate.html

I have a goal to raise $1000, and I will match that dollar for dollar.  As of today, we only need $136.50 to make that goal!  Will you help me obtain this goal?

I love you!

T.

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!

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All Thoughts Captive

Another song off my record, “My Praise” – the second of two projects I put together and am selling to raise funds for marriage counseling, for some couple or couples I may never meet.  🙂  You can read about it here:

Wedding Coat Campaign

Know the Truth Ministries

This song is just FUN. It started in two different minds.  A friend of mine wrote the lyric, and the gang call, “All thoughts captive in obedience to Christ!”  I wrote the dirty riff that sounds like it came from an old Kiss song. I put them together, and out came this song.

As I listened to this song, when my friend originally gave it to me, I couldn’t get “We Will Rock You”, by Queen, out of my head.  So I decided to end the song with a part of an older song of mine, which lines up completely with the song – taking thought captive by focusing on what is true, noble,right, pure, lovely, admirable – Jesus the Christ!

So – I hope you like it.  🙂

As I mentioned in the other posts, I am selling this record to raise money for marriage counseling.  Please prayerfully consider giving to this cause, to save maybe just ONE marriage.  You can buy my music here:

My Praise

Wedding Coat EP

Or, if you like, you can donate directly to the ministry here:

https://northlandcounseling.us/Donate.html

I have a goal to raise $1000, and I will match that dollar for dollar.  As of today, we only need a mere %159 to make that goal!  Will you help me obtain this goal?

I love you!

T.

All Thoughts Captive

Save My Soul…

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Poison

Another song off my record, “My Praise” – the second of two projects I put together and am selling to raise funds for marriage counseling, for some couple or couples I may never meet.  🙂  You can read about it here:

Wedding Coat Campaign

Know the Truth Ministries

This song is about addiction.  I “tried” to capture some of the feeling an addict would have, in moments of weakness, failure, falling back.  I’m writing this, never really having been addicted to drugs or alcohol.  So one would think, “You’re never going to REALLY understand what goes on in a person’s head, in their heart, how controlled and out of control they are”.

Thing is, I really wrote this song about my addiction to food.  To complete garbage, that does nothing but make my body and mind weak, makes me suffer (yes, as you age, you FEEL everything you put in your body…), leaves me with a nasty hangover.  But the high…  Oh the high…

See addiction to food is one most anyone can cover up.  Sure, there could be physical signs of an over-eater.  But not necessarily for everyone.  And for me, who is overweight – hey, I may not be as bad as some.  In America, even with the health kicks going on – we are CONSUMERS.  So those physical signs are either not noticed, or “don’t talk about that, you might offend someone”.  Funny, even if I’m talking about myself, I might offend someone…

Also – you can be a “functional drunk”, when you get your high from sugar, chips, food.  You can still work.  You can still be around family. You can hold conversations – heck, food is part of many great conversations.

And – food, you need it to live!  Other substances, you cannot argue that.  Food – you need.  Food – is GOOD.

I do not say this to paint myself as “poor Ted”.  I wrote this, to deal with, before the Lord, a struggle I have.  One I fail with constantly.  I don’t know why – why would Jesus not just take it away?  Especially when I so often put it before Him?   How is that fair???

The only reason I can think, that makes sense to me, is that He loves me enough to give me that choice.  In the moment, I can give in to the temptation that will give me great pleasure – FOR A MOMENT, then it is gone, replaced with shame, self-pity, self-loathing, bloating, often more cravings…  OR – I can choose Him, who gives me GREAT JOY, with no ill side-effects.

I’ve had moments of victory, thank you Jesus.  Christ is the only reason.  I’ve made commitments over and over to Him, to honor Him with my body.  I’ve failed over and over.  And over…

But He has not.  For He has not given up on me.  That which he began, He will complete.

God is good…

As I mentioned in the other posts, I am selling this record to raise money for marriage counseling.  Please prayerfully consider giving to this cause, to save maybe just ONE marriage.  You can buy my music here:

My Praise

Wedding Coat EP

Or, if you like, you can donate directly to the ministry here:

https://northlandcounseling.us/Donate.html

I have a goal to raise $1000, and I will match that dollar for dollar.  As of today, we only need less than $200 to make that goal!  Will you help me obtain this goal?

I love you!

T.

Poison

My Heart Is Stirred By a Noble Theme…

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Noble Theme (You)

Another song off my record, “My Praise” – the second of two projects I put together and am selling to raise funds for marriage counseling, for some couple or couples I may never meet.  🙂  You can read about it here:

Wedding Coat Campaign

Know the Truth Ministries

I wrote this song on a retreat, while sitting in my dorm room.  I had just returned from spending time in a vineyard, reflecting on the glory of Christ, the true vine.  I returned to my room, and read Psalm 45.  Specifically Psalm 45:1

My heart is stirred by a noble theme
    as I recite my verses for the king;
    my tongue is the pen of a skillful writer.

This song, a love song to Jesus, came from this verse.  And the retreat – it was ALL about the love of Christ.  Sure, we all hear that, we all get that – but I argue, no we don’t.  I was raised in a home that subscribed to a religion of “works”, of behavior-based acceptance.  But never really learned what the love of God meant.  So while I know that – it STILL struggle with that in my heart from time to time.  Hence the line, “I don’t understand this love”.  I don’t.  But you know what?  I will accept it anyway.  As much as I’ll mess up, and even mess up accepting His love – I will receive it.

My heart is stirred by a noble theme.  I will recite verses for You, my King…

As I mentioned in the other posts, I am selling this record to raise money for marriage counseling.  Please prayerfully consider giving to this cause, to save maybe just ONE marriage.  You can buy my music here:

My Praise

Wedding Coat EP

Or, if you like, you can donate directly to the ministry here:

https://northlandcounseling.us/Donate.html

I have a goal to raise $1000, and I will match that dollar for dollar.  As of today, we are at $1632, counting my match.  Will you help me obtain this goal?

I love you!

T.

Noble Theme (You)

Am I My Brother’s Keeper?

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Why Am I My Brother’s Keeper?

Another song off my record, “My Praise” – the second of two projects I put together and am selling to raise funds for marriage counseling, for some couple or couples I may never meet.  🙂  You can read about it here:

Wedding Coat Campaign

Know the Truth Ministries

I wrote this song some time ago, based on a conversation with a dear friend.  He was talking about Cain’s response to God, when asked where Able was – “Am I my brother’s keeper?”.  Our discussion was around how we, as Christians, tend to put ourselves into a protective shell, and neglect the people around us who NEED us.  More important – we neglect our Lord’s commandment to love our neighbor as ourself…

So this song definitely has a negative connotation to it.  Sounds like I’m advocating for puffing oneself up and ignoring the needs of others.  I’m not – I’m confessing this tenancy in myself, as well as exposing it in all of us – Christian or not.

Lately, with all the stuff going on in our country – refugees coming over, being shunned, unwelcome; children given a “gift” of permanent brain damage due to pollution in the water that we helped contribute to, being ignored; A man’s death sparking more controversy over political views “Who is right to fill the seat” than concern for his family – I have to ask – Are we being our brother’s keeper?

Before anyone reads this and immediately jumps to defense, please don’t.  I’m not hear to argue for or against any side, with regards to the topics I mention above, or any for that matter.  I’m asking you to check your heart…  Are you being your brother’s keeper?

Heck – often we don’t know what to do!  So it cripples us.  We – DO NOTHING.  Move on to something we can control, are comfortable with. I do this all the time.

I have had a heart for homeless people, since I was saved.  I will (not often enough) go out and bring food and feed people, with the hope they would be willing to just sit down and chat.  It doesn’t always work out – I don’t want to force myself on anyone.  But when it does work out – man, these people – PEOPLE – who most everyone turns their gaze away from… – feel for a moment like they are human again!  We pray, I share the good news with them, get to know their story, talk about myself a bit.  It’s a lovely time.

BUT – I fail in two huge areas.  One, I will seek MY comfort over doing this, all too often.  In fact, it’s been a long time since I’ve done this.  But two, which is worse – if I have nothing to offer a person on the street (It happens – I don’t carry cash, almost ever, and often don’t have food or anything on myself), I too will turn my gaze away…  Because I feel like if I have nothing to give this person, I will offend.  Dumb – I have MYSELF to give, in that moment!  It’s something I am praying about, and asking God to change in me.  It’s fear, and there is no fear in love.

So – this song.  It’s about all that.  I hope it hits you, in some way.  Cause if you are like me, you need to be shaken up a bit, every now and then.  We were created for more.  We were saved by our Savior Jesus Christ, for so much more…

As I mentioned in the other posts, I am selling this record to raise money for marriage counseling.  Please prayerfully consider giving to this cause, to save maybe just ONE marriage.  You can buy my music here:

My Praise

Wedding Coat EP

Or, if you like, you can donate directly to the ministry here:

https://northlandcounseling.us/Donate.html

I have a goal to raise $1000, and I will match that dollar for dollar.  As of today, we are at $1062, counting my match.  As Jon Bon Jovi says, “We’re halfway there!”  Will you help me obtain this goal?

I love you!

T.

Why Am I My Brother’s Keeper?

You Matter To Me…

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So Go On Tell Me Your Story

Another song off my record, “My Praise” – the second of two projects I put together and am selling to raise funds for marriage counseling, for some couple or couples I may never meet.  🙂  You can read about it here:

Wedding Coat Campaign

Know the Truth Ministries

This song, I basically borrowed the sound from music I “grew up on” in the 90’s.  I was a huge fan of Minneapolis bands like Soul Asylum and the Jayhawks, and then progressed into our neighbors from Chicago, Wilco.  I always wanted to have that sound.  I still don’t have it – but that’s kinda where I’m borrowing from here, as best I can.  🙂

The song is about walking through life together.  Life is not clean, or easy.  It doesn’t go the way we planned.  Ever.  If it seems to – and if we’re honest – we probably just got an unexpected break, and we like the results.  But it can be rough.  We are sinners saved by grace, struggling in a sin soaked world.  We are not yet fully in glory with Jesus.  We have the Holy Spirit – but also our flesh and the world and the devil to contend with.  It’s a battle.

This song is about doing that battle together.

Two are better than one,
    because they have a good return for their labor:
If either of them falls down,
    one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls
    and has no one to help them up.
Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
    But how can one keep warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered,
    two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
(Ecclesiastes 4:9-12)

This passage is often used to describe a marriage.  And it fits!  But it’s really meant for shoulder to shoulder, brothers in arms, the man in your foxhole with you.  I got your back, you have mine.

I’ve never been in the military, or a war for that matter.  But I’ve been to battle with other men.  Brother’s I would lay my life down for, and they me.  If you don’t have that – you need it…

This song is describing that.  I’m here for you.  We are in this together.  You’re not alone in this.

As I mentioned in the other posts, I am selling this record to raise money for marriage counseling.  Please prayerfully consider giving to this cause, to save maybe just ONE marriage.  You can buy my music here:

My Praise

Wedding Coat EP

Or, if you like, you can donate directly to the ministry here:

https://northlandcounseling.us/Donate.html

I have a goal to raise $1000, and I will match that dollar for dollar.  As of today, we are at $1062, counting my match.  As Jon Bon Jovi says, “We’re halfway there!”  Will you help me obtain this goal?

I love you!

T.

So Go On Tell Me Your Story